Sasha Leigh: October 2007

"In My Weakness" by Mark Harland and Cary Schmidt

When living life for Jesus Christ become too hard a task,
When obedience means sacrifice that seems too much to ask;
That’s when I learn that my own strength isn’t really strength at all,
And I find rest in humbleness when I surrender all.

In my weakness He is strong;
In my need He leads me on.
When I come to the end of all I am,
And I place my trust in Him;
That’s when His strength begins –In my weakness.

When failures in my human strength have weakened all my pride,
And ruined hopes in fallen dreams have crumbled me inside;
It’s then by grace I fin’lly see the strength of Jesus Christ,
His victory is real in me when weakness fills my life.

In my weakness He is strong;
In my need He leads me on.
When I come to the end of all I am,
And I place my trust in Him;
That’s when His strength begins –In my weakness.

II Corinthians 12:9-10: “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.”

The words of this song speak ever so deeply to my heart. The Lord has been bringing about so many trials in my life recently and this song has reminded me that I am made strong in my weakness and that God is there helping me at all times.

This past week I have been exhausted and still unable to sleep well because of my leg injury and because I usually manage to pull my knee muscles at the oddest moments, a heavy demerit penalty and incident with one of my teachers that was a total misunderstanding (but I was still awarded a ton of demerits), unexpected hospital bills, missions conference, and burdens that have abounded for my friends and their families. Throughout all these events, God is with me and I am blessed and surviving because of the grace of God and His strength. One phrase that has been a constant reminder for me is Jehovah jireh, which means God will provide. No matter what happens, God will be there and He will give of me what I ask. This has been such a blessing because I know He will pay all my hospital bills that I can't even fathom how I am going to afford. I got the hospital bill for my physical way back when in August and ouch, that hurts. I am able to pay for that one. The next and only two I have left, I have no clue how I am going to pay: for an ER visit and an orthopedic doctor visit. God will provide. He always does.

I would appreciate all your prayers during this time and especially for my financial situation. I have another prayer request. My friend Buddy's mom, delivered her twin babies at about 20 -22 weeks. The first baby miscarried and the second one, Joshua Caleb, is in the ICU on a respirator. He is on the lowest setting and mostly breathing by himself. Please just pray for the family and Buddy as this is a hard time for them all. God Bless and I shall try and update soon...I updated tonight simply because they have left the Internet on all night and I am not feeling well at the moment, so I am blogging. It's only close to three a.m. ....good night....

This first pic is the a sign/poster thing that each girl on my floor is supposed to make and I decided to get a little more crafty than most. We originally were given just the brown paper with polka dots and I added the green, sparkly tissue paper from graduation (thank you Laura!) and added some fun things I pulled out of all my art and scrapbooking supplies...

The second pic just happens to be me holding a disheveled, wire clothes hanger and my car keys I had locked in my car before freshman registration. My PC and I had a blast getting them out. After about a hour and a half later, two guys and some staff guys were finally able to break into my car! Praise the Lord for all the gentleman on this campus!

The last two pics are from dorm devos this week. Since Halloween is right around the corner, we had dress up a person from your room night and see who wins...I was one of the three of five girls around for devos in my room and the only willing. So, we threw together an outfit in five minutes and my friend from right down the hall and I looked great. She's not the one in the last picture, but I still love her. I was a pink Greecian goddess, I think, oh a fallen pink Greecian goddess. I have one of my crutches somewhere......

These are some of the pictures that were taken at Fall Festival at MBBC this past weekend. I had a blast at Fall Festival. The music was so encouraging and the God given convictions I have gained have been put to use. I am so thankful that the Lord reminds us or just flat out tells us that we need to change. The Lord is good!!

After Fall Festival, I went to late night skate, after being convinced by a few of my friends, and had fun....for the most part. I would show you pictures but I had little accident before I could take any. You see, I had taken a break and some of my friends and I had just finished playing rook (the bestest card game ever) and they announced a friends skate and Geo and I got out onto the rink. Geo and I had skated together for a while before that (Geo is the guy standing on the right in the pictures or the guy in the blue shirt and black suit) and I was accident free. After we had just gotten out onto the rink, we got maybe down one side of the rink and a guy comes up behind me, who just happened to be twice the size of me, and sacks right dab into my back. Needless to say, I went flying and landed on my left knee and twisted my left leg yet again. I landed hard and my friends knew that once I had fallen, I landed hard. After my lovely incident, I was assisted off the rink and ended up going to the ER with another girl who had a head injury. I praise the Lord that he gives me such good friends who care. They would have carried me if I needed them to.

The ER was an interesting experience. The nurses and doctor were not altogether nice and stereotyped me just because I went to MBBC. Needless to say, they were a big blessing once it came to diagnosing my problem. I sat in the ER for two others before going home and I got home around 2 a.m. It was discovered that I most likely have a sprained left knee. I was made to wear a knee immobilizer and use crutches

I also went to the doctor on Monday and he says I still have a sprain and a badly bruised knee. He said that even if it is fractured, there is nothing they can do except let it heal naturally. Praise the Lord, he let me take off the knee brace, but the crutches must stay till I can walk without a limp.

Altogether, I had a fun time this past weekend at Fall Festival and if asked to go to late night skate again, I will probably go but always remember this little statement some of my friends and I made up, " a true late night skate is not a late night skate without a trip to the ER." Think about...you'll get it eventually...